Peter Pan

Growing up happens so fast that once you start to realize you are changing, it is too late to go back. I've abandoned the way of thinking I've had since I was a kid, and everything is changing so quickly. I always thought adulthood would come slowly, but it just happens. There is no stopping it.

I'm trying to find myself on a blank page.

I've stopped daydreaming because every time I try to do so I hit reality harder than I ever did before

I've felt so lonely lately, as the daydream of an ideal man stopped too

I'm not happy. This is when they tell you it gets better. I believe it.

I am not happy, but I have hope

I carry my bag of little gemstones in my case, so I have something to give me security

I'll wear my grandmother's ring as a promise to myself that I will never give up

All of my fantasies I will shape into realities I can strive for

I will daydream on paper, and leave it there instead of in my head

I will read more and escape in a book, instead of in my head

He will come eventually, and I hope we surprise each other

I will listen to music to clear my head

I will focus in school

I will stop melting my mind online

I will start to listen to things I never wanted to before

Childhood ends here

As I have so much to learn

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